it has a hectic two days, first off dinner with my girls ; Joey, Patel, Rika. having dinner at old town. makes me remembering back the good old times during the early semester. good times .. good times
today, i got a .. okay lah i think. but it wasnt the best though. early class, physics lab was the shiznit yaw. doing a simple experiment, and it took us more than 2 hours to do it. well, we talked a lot, but mostly about this things D:. after the class, i had lunch with amira, talked and talked and talked, went to library, then off to physics. fell asleep for few times, then i went out and wash my face. checked the english drama group and God knows how pissed i am when i saw what my english teacher did. she simply pull me off from one of the group and throw me with the sudanese. its not that i dont like em, but i dont feel like working with them. got only 2.5 weeks to do this, and we dont even have any idea :O. surely gonna fail T,T
i got a text message from maxis, saying my bills are nearly off the hook. so basically imma slow down a bit. less texting and calling for at least 8 more days. at least. so guys, contact me through fb please :)
and to YOU who may concern, i miss you very much. every minute i think bout you, but my time for study is way too priceless for me to waste. since i have like more and more studies to do, i never had time to rest. everyday, i slept at 1, and its just tiring. waking up in the morning, then without breakfast, just drive to class. man.. i need some rest. anyways, as you can see the paragraph above, i cant really text that much now. im really sorry, i really am :(
sometimes, i just gotta follow my curfew. but i'll try to call you soon. wait for it k. cz i really do miss you. and when i read your post yesterday and today, i felt like .. im the worthless yet the worst guy who'd ever lived in this beautiful world. i admit, im a player, who talks to all girl. yes i do. but its not like what you think. im not that kind of player tbh. im a different person if you get to know me deeper. words you wrote on your blog was kinda sad for me to read, thinking of what i did to you, wasting the valuable chances when i had. its just .. sighh .. :(
i just want you to be happy thats all. but the way to make you happy could take years of knowing you. i knew you for almost 3 months now and yet i dont know to draw a smile on your face. how dumb of me .. well, you said you'll be back by this week. so im hoping to see you eitherway. i'll try to be free when you need me. with all this matter almost finish, im getting those free time like i needed.
i miss the good old nights, phone calls till 4 am, promises we did, the funny voices, waking you up in the morning, your laziness and naughty attitude that make me wanna pinch your nose and hug you, your kindness :'(
i just dont know what to say anymore ..
i guess thats the only thing i can think now. i hope you read this
and just wanna say this out loud, I STILL LOVE YOU MON CHERIE <3
yes it may be too late, but do understand me. i still want you. no matter how close other girls are to me, youre always top of my list..
till then readers.. yeah i know, im getting emo-er nowdays haha
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