Firstly, it's already 9 days after new year. Things have been pretty much the same. I mean, its the new year, what would you expect ey? To me, its just a typical new day with some new mission(s)? Well, people call it a new year's resolution. To me, that kind of stuff are whack man. Most people would be crossing off one of the things on the list and would not be bother doing the rest. That's how life goes. You tend to focus at one thing and then put other stuff in minor position, meaning taking things for granted. Life man.. gotta deal with it somehow. Anyhow, my new mission was to change. I can say that every year, I'd be saying that "I wanna become a better person" or "This year would be the new Farhan" or even "This year, Imma be famous", which is something totally ridiculous. However, this year would totally be the year that I would totally be a new person. You see, I was born on the 21st February 1993. If calculated, I'll be 21 by now. So, I made a promise to myself that once I've officially turned 21, it'll be a new me. Like I would prepare myself to become a better son, friend, colleague. It's hard but I'm gonna try somehow.. I'm not being a superstitious kinda of people or whatsoever. It's just that since I was born on the 21st, I guess it'd be good if I change when I'm officially 21. Afterall, being 21 is like being totally legal for everything. It's not that I'm looking forward to it or so. Who likes being old anyway right?
I wonder if people would want to know how I'm living my life now right? Its hard to describe but bare with me while I try to explain it in a most imaginative way so that you can see how certain stuff had made my life today.
So lets start off with a podcast. Yes.. a podcast.
Back when I was on my one month break in Doha, I was out travelling to Oman for some holidays. Y'know, to ease off my mind of the city life and all. So I went to Salalah and witness the creation of Allah. MashaAllah, when I was there, I see a lot of beautiful beaches, mountains and other traditions that amazes me. Then I had a thought for a while, this is just a few of what has been created by The Almighty. There is more to see in the afterlife as what has been promised by Him. So after a week of amazement, I went back to my normal life in Doha. Normal routine as usual. Wake up, send my brother and my dad to their destinations, went back and hit the gym for an hour or so. Typical life of a semester break student. So one day, I had to pick up my brother from school so I drove the car with my beautiful mother beside me. She had a lists of good islamic podcast in her iPhone so she paired it (via bluetooth) with the car. So while I was driving, I heard one of the speeches from the one and only, Mufti Ismail Menk. He said to his audience during his talk.
" How many of us have read the Quran from cover to cover and actually understand what it actually means? What if we die one day and when Allah asks us, have we read His book and understand what it means? Are we not ashamed of ourselves that in front of our Creator? "
So I had a thought. Not to brag but I've finished reading the Quran for 3 times already and yet, I still don't know what does it mean. To make it worse, I'm living in an arab country, where the official language is arabic and yet I still can't speak arabic as fluent as I should be. I'm friends with arabs. What are my reason to not study any arabic language when I've been living there almost 7 years and counting. You know how shameful that is? It hit me rockbottom! So the talk goes on and my ears were glued to it till I almost lost focus while I was driving and eversince that, I'd never miss a talk whenever I'm driving till there were no more episodes to listen off.
What I wanna say is that, in life, we have to be grateful with whatever we have. Make use of it. Last 7 years, Allah had sent me to Qatar for some good reasons. From our side, we'd be seeing all the good things that benefits me and my family in living on the dunya whilst not the akheerah. Allah had better plan for us and after 7 years, I've realised that it was this that Allah wanted me to do. To learn and understand His messages that He is passing through the Quran. If we were to really understand it and apply it to our life situation, many of the things (sadness, angryness, happiness) can be solved by reading the Quran. I'm writing this not to judge or to cause any offence, but by listening to music or go shopping or out partying is not the way to release your stress. It's the Quran. There are many reasons why we should read the Quran and one of them is this. I'm not that pious either but I start to push to myself near to Allah. He is the best of Planners and He knows what is best for me. By reading the Quran, I feel calmness and there's no stress at all and I'm not making that up. It's a true story.
So yeah, that was how my life almost turned into a 360. I'm not here to judge cz we all have our own life to live and its not right for me to force you to do so. I'm giving my own reasons why I had the urge to become a better person and a better muslim. We don't live forever in this world. Whatever Allah gives me, be it tests or rewards, I have to keep in mind that it all comes with a good reasons. That is why we should say "Alhamdulillah' no matter what happens in our life, be it a good thing or vice versa. I'll be honest that eversince that podcast incident, my life has been much more simpler with loads of benefits and I'm grateful with what I've been getting lately. Its becoming even better day by day. Then I realise that if my mum hadn't put that podcast on, Allah knows what will I be by now.
So yeah, that basically how my life is right now. I'm still the same old Farhan or Auni by some people. Its just that I'm starting to change myself for the better cause. We all have that wish in becoming a better person right? We have to work for it then. Don't let them go rolling. Start working to become a better person. Its not only beneficial for us but also the society. Last but not least, to my muslim friends and my non muslim friends, be thankful to your God that He has given you an another day to live by and to witness His miracles right before your eyes. Make a good use out of it. Always make the negativity become a positive. Always know that whatever happens, He knows what is best for us. Never lose hope and keep on praying
TIll then buds, wasalamah and have a nice day :)
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