Its been a while since I havent play my guitar like a freak. Its like bringing back my mood when I was 15 or 16. all those time, rock band show, farewell parties, jamming with my bands .. yes, bands people. I got two bands where both were unsuccessful. Well not to say its unsuccessful or so, its just we dont have the chemistry to play as a serious band yet. We will someday, but not now ;)
Remembering those days, plucking some metallica's, strumming some my chemical romance, its like the adrenaline that I live with. Something to pump up your self confidence straight to breaking the point. Screamed so loud that no one can hear what you're saying. This is the kind of feeling I really want when im in this kind of mood. sigh ~~
The weather today, reminds me of the rock show we had last year. It was half raining, half windy, half cold and all. It wasnt the best weather to do a rock show, but you just dont get that chance everyday. The show goes on, and we were satisfied, so is the crowd. We jumped, we solo-ed, we scream, we sing along, we share all those moments in one night. the one night where I will not forget. From that night, I've changed. it was a different me the week after. still the same Farhano, but now im like the pop star in the school. Some of my own fans and ask for my signature. Everytime there's a show in school, they would be expecting us to play for that event. The request were high. Man I cant believe I left school so early. what was I thinking :( ..
Coming back to malaysia, hoping there would be a better future for me. Well .. lets just say it didnt turned out the way I expected it'd be but it went a lil well. The people here are nice and all, but sometimes it made me wonder, do they actually wanna be my friends or they're just taking advantage of me ? even my parents said, you just gotta be careful when making friends in malaysia. I didnt face that problem till now. I'm starting to think, only few malaysians would think out of the box. now this kind of people, its really rare around malaysia. I'm not saying im perfect or what, I admit. I'm a lil dumber then other people, a lil immature, a lil hot tempered, but my thinking is way better than these peoples. Think about it, a 17 year old doing all those older people stuff, that is something you cant get from anyone. I have the power to debate till there's no other way you're gonna win it. I have the power to pull some hadith, and show it to you. I have the power of staying strong eventhough my body type would make people say no way. I hold to this motto " shit happens, life goes on, nobody's perfect ". This kind of motto made me stay strong everyday when all those stuff hits me on the face so hard. No matter how bad the bruises are or how big the cut will be or how many blood you lose at that time, just move on. The Lord is fair and He will keep testing us. That's the purpose of living, Without it, we tend to forget bout Him and we will be lost in the lake of sins.
I think I wrote long enough. Yeah. I just realised I wrote long this time. Well some things are better to say when you know it'll open the eyes for some people. Some, you just keep it inside and tell em later. I'm tired of my life. seriously. Being nice to people when they actually can take advantage of you. I'm done. That's it. Imma start to hibernate soon. You need me, you fucking find me. till then ~~
Happy birthday Kareem Hassan <3 (far right)
Good times
My favourite picture <3
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